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Where does this road lead to

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 07:09:49 GMT

I am extremely happy!

She is giving me a chance! Perhaps this is it, the long curse of 'no luck' in love is finally taking a turn. I know it may sound too early to be happy, but the fact is that She GAVE me a CHANCE....nobody ever gave me a chance, and she did!

I do pray that things will work out for us

thinking again

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 11:44:33 GMT

Hai... I guess the thing that I fear most is loneliness... Try eating dinner, alone everyday... its depressing I used to have Wendy to have dinner with and now she is away.. far far away...and I used to have friends to have dinner with...well until all of them got their girlfriends...

Having a girl to think about and a girlfriend to care is not so bad of an idea after all! But, initially going after the girl is actually painful! you know I have never ever successfully asked a girl out before in my entire life! the girls all rejected me like I'm a leper or something! hahahah What to do? I'm not good looking, not well built, I am dark and I am not talented in anything at all.. I'm bad at music and futsal!...and my colleague, Janet Chai says that I suck at singing.. so I guess that sums it all...

I guess I never have any luck in Love at all.. not even one... hahahahah.. life huh? well its unfair.. but i guess i have no choice but to live through it...

Am I in Love?

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 06:13:54 GMT

Am I in Love?

I really don't know the answer to this question. I miss her very much now since she has gone. I miss the moments that I've spent with her. The things that we talk about. The time we spent together. I really miss her. I wished that I could have just pick the phone up and call her. But I guess, I couldn't. Maybe She is busy? what shall I talk to her on the phone? what to talk about? I don't know. For the first time in my life, my answer is I don't know. scarry huh?

Gangster

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:22:48 GMT

Am I a Gangster? Do I l;ook like one? Well to be honest, I am one...A gangster of Christ

Am I a Protege of Law?

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:21:13 GMT

How do I know that I am good at what I do? do I not portray myself as an incompetent person? But I still need a lot of guidance, maybe under the wing of the great master of Law, Christ...

Infernal Affairs III

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:18:18 GMT

Have you wondered what would it be like a spy, an undercover cop? a Good guy?

Thoughts

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 16:08:31 GMT

What does it mean to be broken?

Can you believe it?

Can you think clearly?

Whats going through your mind?

When is it going to end?

Who am I?

I am fading away...

What Good Is A Heart?

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 06:49:43 GMT

I told you how I felt,
I told you what it meant,
But I still havent changed your mind,
I know that youre afraid,
Youre frightened of the pain,
But you can let down your guard...

Cause when we run, when we hide,
We deny whats inside...

What good is a heart if youre not gonna use it,
What good is a love if youre too scared to choose it,
If youre heart is beating, then its for a reason, girl,
If youre not willing to start, what good is a heart?

Dont make the same mistake that people often make,
And miss out on a chance for love,
Youve got to make your move, youve got to make it soon,
Cause youre dying inside...

Yes, Im a man, but I cry,
I have fears, I wont lie...

What good is a heart if youre not gonna use it,
What good is a love if youre too scared to choose it,
If youre heart is beating, then its for a reason, girl,
If youre not willing to start, what good is a heart?

Come on, babe, you know it, girl,
Anyone who looks can see that Im right,
Theres a chance here, we could take it,
Or regret it for the rest of our lives...

What good is a heart if youre not gonna use it,
What good is a love if youre too scared to choose it,
If youre heart is beating, then its for a reason, girl,
If youre not willing to start, what good is a heart

- Code Red

How Did I fall In Love With You...

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 03:14:37 GMT

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall, in love, with you?

-Backstreet Boys, Black and Blue Album, year 2000

Somewhere else by Jon Walker

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 03:03:35 GMT

“For I have learned to be content, whatever the circumstances.” (Philippians 4:11 NIV)

Community — Have you ever been somewhere you didn’t want to be? Maybe it was a job, a town, or a marriage. Maybe it was a stage in life, like singlehood, or a state in life, like a disability. It’s very possible that as you read this, you’re wishing you were somewhere else – anywhere else – living a different life, but you know it’s not likely that anything is going to change any time soon.

God has a word for you. It’s the same word he gave a group of people when they were stuck in another country, exiled from their homeland. They’d folded their arms and said, “We’re going to wait this thing out, and when we get home, we’ll start living our lives.”

Through the prophet Jeremiah, God told them, “You’re not going home any time soon, so start making your lives here. Plant gardens, buy homes, let your children get married, and pray for the peace and prosperity of the place where you’re currently living because, by doing that, you too will be blessed with peace and prosperity.”
To use a modern cliché, God was saying, “Bloom where you’re planted.”

Don’t invest your energy in hopes of leaving; instead invest your energy in the people around you. The Christian martyr Jim Eliot expressed it this way: “Wherever you are, be all there.” Don’t be physically present but mentally somewhere else, thinking of the future or the past, thinking of someplace else. Our journey with Christ requires that we be fully present in the present.

Dietrich Bonhoeffer called it “this worldliness,” and said, “It is only by living completely in this world that one learns to live by faith.” This focus allows you to see that your life is centered in God and not the place you live or work, not the person you’re married to – or not married to – not how you feel or how you look.
Investing in the people around you is exactly how you find life. Jeremiah even told the exiles that God had arranged for them to be in exile. So it was God’s plan all along to push them to the edge of their existence, so they would end up centered solely on God.

You may feel like you’re in exile too, but God is still working in your life; and his message to you is: Dig in and fully embrace the life around you.

So What?
· Center your life in God, not in your circumstances. God is constant; your circumstances are temporary. Ask God, “What do you want me to learn or to do in these present circumstances.”

· Change me, God – Instead of asking God to change your circumstances, ask him to change you in the circumstances.

· Practice being in the present – Today, whenever you find your mind drifting to another place, bring it back to the present, and ask God to help you stay in the present.

· Determine to be a good steward of what you have, instead of focusing on what you don’t have. Make the most of what God has given you.